Random rants

After the oral defense i thought i can do whatever want to do  but i'm WRONG. Because after the effin oral defense i have to finish the proposal in my other minor subject plus the OJT. Err, i thought looking for a company  is easy but then again i'm WRONG why? because i'd been changing my mind about the company that i choose, coz every time ojt would come across my mind i'm fidgeting and effin nervous. I'm about to see the real side of the world blah blah. If ever my mom would know that i'd been wavering about myself again i know she will scold the hell out of me. She hate it when i'm underestimating  myself i remember when i asked her " Ma, what if i fail at the civil service exam!?" my mom answer me "it's okay you could take up to five times" and just recently i don't know if she's motivating me or what that time, i told her that "what if i fail the oral defense" my mom told me that she hates it when i'm talking negatively and seems like i don't believe with myself "

Oh-So-Effin-Week cum Hellish Week

Waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

Not again! submission of project plus portfolio in business implementation and the last and final oral defense happened in just one effin week!! God! i really don't know what am i supposed to do that time. First, We have to do the portfolio so we have to conduct an overnight (as if something happen) well something good happen is just that we're not able to finish it. So imagine a perfect example of a walking zombie at the corridor HAHA! SCARY! then, finished it at the school with a frowned head because you got irritated with you're classmate's actions (bear with me!!)
Second, make a proposal for the MIS subject since i am on the planning thingy  it's my task to do it (See, See. see i'd been punished) Third, Passed the defense! ( On this one i'm proud because we passed the oral defense)

I soooooo hate it . i hate being rush but i love to procrastinate so bear the consequences eh!

just a piece of advice for every college student's out there BEWARE with the Oh-So-Effin-Week..

The TEST of faith.

Have you ever experience  being paranoid? me and my friends yes! That weird feeling that you can't even sleep soundly at night because something is bothering you? Yes!  that feeling of being hopeless because your'e effin scared? All of those happened to me and my friends. One of my friends died not because of simple illness but because of a virus, a virus that can be transmitted to  others. When i learned about it i admit i got mad because there's possibility that me and my friends might acquire it. that's why i felt so helpless that time. that the only solution is to undergo a test and keep our faith with GOD. It's true that if you believe and keep you're faith with God everything will be okay. Because all of our prayers we're answered the result shown and all of us we're not infected with the virus. My friends and i were so happy because of the outcome and maybe my friend (jet) won't let it happen, after all he's guiding us from up above.

My to-do-list on 2013

Since it's 2013 already, i decided to list down the things that i have to do and accomplish this year.

 (PS. Those with strike through was accomplished already)

1.) Undergo a test. (It's for my health reasons. I don't want to elaborate more since it's too private) Non-reactant lets celebrate!!

2.) Pass the oral defense.  My Implementation group should pass the last oral defense scheduled this January 27-28. Well my group should pass this defense or else all of our efforts will be wasted plus, we all want to graduate and i'm sure my group don't want to render another 90 hours for Pete sake.

3.) Look for OJT. (Another pass to graduate)

4.) I want to watch all movies based by Nicholas Sparks novels. (Here's the list.)
A Walk To Remember 
The last Song
The Notebook
Dear John
The Lucky One
Safe Haven

5.) I want to read more novels English or Tagalog. Most especially English Novels.(I'll list down all of the books that I've read this 2k13)

Full Circle by Danielle Steel
The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

6.) To graduate. of course i want to graduate that's my greatest dream.

7.) Pass the Civil Service Examination.

8.) Find a decent job. I want to earn my own money and help my parents too.

9.) Travel around the Philippines. I want to prove that it's more fun in the Philippines charaught! Hahahaha! By that time i'm sure that i already found a job so i have the means of travelling.

10.) Watch more movies.

So Undercover
Warm Bodies
Pitch Perfect
Les Miserables


11.) To be happy and contented, nuff said.

I guess i already had enough. Hahaha! Jk! i didn't know it's hard to list down things that i want to do, so if ever another things pop up on my mind i list it down right away.PROMISE!!

Knock Knock!

Another day of new year came, and i'm here trying to move forward by what happened to my friend :(. (Wait this post must be a happy post, so erase negativism) Back to the post, A while ago, while i'm watching, my brother Yeshua disturbed me and whisper something. Actually, i didn't understand what he is trying to whisper, so i ask him to louder his voice, then he said, " I have knock knock" i got intrigued so i answer back, "who's there?"

Here's the whole conversation..

YESHUA: Knock knock

ME: Who's there?

YESHUA: Hari (king)

ME: Hari who?

YESHUA: (sings in Hari ng tondo tune)Hari ng tondo, hari ng tondo

ME: Silly!! I have one Knock Knock

YESHUA: Who's there?

ME: Lampara (lamp) 

YESHUA: Lampara who?

ME: (Sings in the tune of kaibigan lang pala) Kaibigan lampara, kaibigan lampara akoo!!

Me and Yeshua: Laughs

I was laughing the whole conversation since my brother is really funny while thinking of another knock knock words. At least, my brother helps me to ease my sadness.

Goodbye, Friend

Sa totoo lang di ko alam na darating sa point na magsusulat ako ng blog na ganito kabigat yung nararamdaman ko, di ko iniexpect to eh!. At bakit ngayon pa nangyari? kung kelan naman malapit na tayo grumaduate tsaka ka pa umalis Jet. Alam mo ba yung nararamdaman namin ngayon? knowing na naturingan kaming close friend pero kami pa ata yung huling nakaalam. Alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na kulang yung salitang gulat sa masamang balita na natanggap namin. Yung pakiramdam na malubha na pala yung sakit mo pero sinarili mo. Yung iyak namin knowing na di ka na namin makikita ulit. Masakit lahat para sa amin yun pero ang pwede na lang naming gawin yun eh tanggapin na Wala ka na. Na wala ng bakla na tatawag sa aking lalaki, na wala ng bakla na manlalait sa amin, yung bakla na ang lakas lakas ng boses. Alam mo di pa rin kami makapaniwala na   wala ka na.


Jet,

Bakla kung nababasa mo ito makonsensya ka! Aba! pinaiiyak mo kaming lahat. Nagulat ako sa nangyari sa'yo kasi never kong na-imagine na you already had you're purpose. Sabagay sa twenty years of existence mo marami kang napatawa kasama na kami roon. kahit papaano masaya ako, kami kasi nakilala ka namin napatawa mo kami sa mga jokes mo, sa pang-aasar mo. Remember, noong nakasabay ka namin magpaenroll tapos late ka dumating at di pa rin kami tapos magbayad at may sobrang o.r then binigay namin sayo at nung natapos tayo sabi ko kaya napasobra yung or na yun kasi destined para sa'yo yun then dun na nagsimula yung friendship nating lahat. Kahit sandali ka namin nakasama masaya pa rin kami kasi nagkaroon kami ng chance na makilala ka at maging kaibigan ka.
mamimiss kita lalo na yung pang-aasar mo sa akin. Nagtatampo kami sa'yo kasi may sakit ka na pala sinarili mo lang.
Baks, kung nasaan ka man ngayon sana masaya ka well dapat lang kasama muna si bro! Baks, pagaling ka dyan okay . We will miss you always. Love you jet! 

ps: pang 79th ka sa mga deans lister!


ezra!

He, who always remember

There is one person i knew since elementary days and every special occasion in my life he always remember aside from my family and friends. We do not communicate with each other more often, we don't text or chat ,he's not a friend on my Facebook page nor a follower on my twitter account but still he finds a way to greet mo or ask me if i'm okay even if he never received any reply. Sometimes, i am irritated because of his consistent persistence but he doesn't care. though a part of me is happy because despite of my i-don't-care attitude he still remember me.

Anxious

This would be my first blog post for the year 2013 hurray!.

Serious mood

 I'm really really getting nervous as time goes by, why? because my graduation day is fast approaching and every time i'm thinking about it, a part of me is getting anxious,nervous,and scared. But, before the graduation day i have to think about this two important thing: The business implementation final defense and my OJT. This defense really scares the hell out of me, i can't help but worry about the possibility of failing (every body hates failing so do i). I hate the fact that i'm not thinking the positive way, what can i do, negativity succumb my whole being. My ojt, actually i really don't know what am i going to do with my ojt, though, i actually don't have to think about it since i already found one, but heck, i cant help  but think the what if i fail, what if i disappoint them, what if blah blah. *Look what negativity is doing to me* if i surpass this two,

in three months time..

GRADUATION DAY, i am excited by the fact that i am about to finish my studies and step by step i'll be fulfilling my dreams. Since negativity is still succumbing my whole being i'd been thinking what would happen after i graduate, can i really get a decent job or not at all, can i fulfill my dreams or not, can i payback all of the hardships, efforts that my parents did for me or i am about to give them disappointments and can i give them the life that i'd been dreaming for so long? (i really don't know) *sighs*

This time i can't help but think, think, think, think, after my graduation i am not allowed to procrastinate like what i keep on doing, i have to whisk off  all of my foolishness, i'll i have to take life seriously, know my priorities if i want to succeed i have to do that, do these, do whatever it is.

I wonder does a graduating student like me also feels this anxious feeling? because like me, they're also about to finish their studies and we're about to see the real world?