Anxious

This would be my first blog post for the year 2013 hurray!.

Serious mood

 I'm really really getting nervous as time goes by, why? because my graduation day is fast approaching and every time i'm thinking about it, a part of me is getting anxious,nervous,and scared. But, before the graduation day i have to think about this two important thing: The business implementation final defense and my OJT. This defense really scares the hell out of me, i can't help but worry about the possibility of failing (every body hates failing so do i). I hate the fact that i'm not thinking the positive way, what can i do, negativity succumb my whole being. My ojt, actually i really don't know what am i going to do with my ojt, though, i actually don't have to think about it since i already found one, but heck, i cant help  but think the what if i fail, what if i disappoint them, what if blah blah. *Look what negativity is doing to me* if i surpass this two,

in three months time..

GRADUATION DAY, i am excited by the fact that i am about to finish my studies and step by step i'll be fulfilling my dreams. Since negativity is still succumbing my whole being i'd been thinking what would happen after i graduate, can i really get a decent job or not at all, can i fulfill my dreams or not, can i payback all of the hardships, efforts that my parents did for me or i am about to give them disappointments and can i give them the life that i'd been dreaming for so long? (i really don't know) *sighs*

This time i can't help but think, think, think, think, after my graduation i am not allowed to procrastinate like what i keep on doing, i have to whisk off  all of my foolishness, i'll i have to take life seriously, know my priorities if i want to succeed i have to do that, do these, do whatever it is.

I wonder does a graduating student like me also feels this anxious feeling? because like me, they're also about to finish their studies and we're about to see the real world?